I've fallen all the way in

It has been a hell of a year. Many different avenues have been taken and I would've never imagined in the slightest that I would find myself here, especially after all that I've been through. This is one of the most terrifying things I've ever felt. I honestly didn't think it was possible you know? That I would ever find myself at this point but I feel it deep down in my soul and it's perfect. Even if it's temporary, even if I'm delusional that's ok as long as I can keep this. If only for a little while I'm satisfied. I stumbled and somehow managed to fall all the way in despite my fight.. And I'm so glad.