forward

“Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are; precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way.” -Al Franken

We've all made our fair share of mistakes and until the span of our life draws to an end we will continue to make them. Nothing is intentional, sometimes things just happen. I never meant to fall for the wrong person and have my heart broken. I can't honestly say that you were the wrong person, because at the time you seemed best fitting. I think at one point the person we're most comfortable with or that we can even relate to on some level that stretches past physical is the person we are supposed to be with at that particular time in our lives. Whether that person is a stanger or your very best friend, it is who it is and it is what it is.

And I'm sure you never meant to break it, to grab it and take it. And as a result of my own heartache I never meant to ruin myself or anybody else. This was never a part of the plan. I am sincerely sorry that it turned out this way. I owe no explainations for my behavior. I firmly believe this, and also fully acknowledge that I am incapable of admitting/understanding the reasoning myself.

I'm an idiot for selflessness. I possess this terrible habit of trying to fix things when I'm still broken. I will willingly allow myself to suffer the blame or guilt for things that aren't completely mine. I've managed to con myself into believing that by doing this I am becoming the bigger person. I want things to be better for everybody else even when better means allowing myself to feel worse.

I never meant to become this shallow shell of a girl but here I am. I don't really know too much about myself or the person I plan on becoming but I know that I could be so much better. So this is my attempt to begin making ammends with myself, to learn from my mistakes.

fall in just as you let go

I am starting to think like a crazy person.
I am acting out because I feel worthless. I want to give away
everything that I have now so none of it belongs to you anymore.