It's hard to be happy when all you feel is hurt. When all you feel is confusion. It feels like I have descended into a thick fog..  You head into it head on knowing that there is no certainty of what is to come but you can't stop the track you've jumped on. That's what it feels like...  Like I am in it and I don't know what to expect on the other side. I am starting to feel nothing for anyone anymore. It scares me to think I might never feel that special way. My brother always said to tread carefully,  that after every heartbreak we love a little less whole-heartedly.  That we are a bit more guarded. I can see that now. I can feel that now.