You know how they say, "The universe conspires in your favor"? Well, they lied.

One bad thing is unfortunate, two bad things is a coincidence and three or more is a pattern. These last few months have been a rut for me. I'm down and I'm out and to be honest I don't really know what else to do. Normally, when things get scary I turn to the people who have always been there to support me, to guide me. The only people I know who genuinely care for me are in short supply. I feel like, they've grown sick of me. So now I'm on my own. Independence is a good thing and dependence is a handicap, but at this rate I don't think I'm better off. I know that all these things will help me to become a bigger and better person in the long haul but what scares me most is I'm not sure that I'll be able to make it out of this in one piece. I've really never felt this alone in awhile.